aku dan semuanya

Aku dan bermilyar: drama, mimpi, harapan dan cerita nyata yang tak ada habisnya

Bersamamu 

matahari, pelangi, 

udara, angin, 

air, laut,  pantai,

taman, es krim, 

pasir, debu dan batu-batu, 

serta  semesta yang luar biasa

Kalau boleh aku ingin berhenti

Pada saat drama yang tadinya hanya mimpi 

berisi harapan menjadi kenyataan

Lalu mendapatkan diriku sebagai makhluk paling beruntung 

ditengah semesta yang luar biasa sebagai: Aku.

Dear, Ice Cream...

Glad to have you in my every moments

My bad times and good times

You always cheer me up

Making my day and ready to melt for my pleasure

Making me addicted to ask more of you

I do love you

I

Do

Love

You

And can not find the reasons why

Because

I just do

Really...

Sincerely,

Heart ♥

Dear, Coffee

How’s life?

How’s your day?

Is it hard?

I want to talk to you

Here, with this warm and beautiful sunset,

You open my eyes and make me see how cool you are to me

Even there’s a little bit bitter tastes of you,

You make me realize,

I start to fall in love with you

We never had a long conversation before

In every silence with you, I always find the words

To describe how was my day with and without you

Because the best time with you only in the morning and in the very end evening

When the sun sets and burns the sky

But you never read me.

You just go away and left the empty cup.

And here we are now,

We stare the brightest star

Amazed with the real life

And we start a very long conversation

About life. About you. About me. About us.

About coffee and books.

How you can not read me and how I can not taste the real you

Then we are very sorry for misunderstanding behind our silence before

Coffee,

I wish we have another coffee story

The better one

Until the very best ending

Warmest regards,

Book

untitled love letter

Bukan ini yang kuinginkan

Kehilanganmu disaat aku tahu dimana hati ini seharusnya berada

Aku mencintaimu, Putri

Tak peduli tepat atau tidak

Karena ketika cinta jatuh telak dihatimu

Aku adalah aku

Tanpa awalan atau akhiran

Ketika kamu jatuh telak dihatiku

Kamu adalah kamu

Tanpa notasi berurutan dihatiku

Lebih karena mencintai adalah karunia

Akupun memutuskan untuk tidak mengacuhkan seribu tanya

Mengapa kemudian memilihmu

Sudah lama aku berhenti bertanya,

Berhenti menjawab

Karena semua itu hanya akan membuatku meragu tentangmu

Perpisahan tak kan mengubah apapun

Karena kau telah memenangi hatiku

Rindu

Dalam dekat dalam jarak

Kan kupendam sedalam yang kumampu

Karena akulah yang memilih bergeser dari garismu

Aku mungkin telah pergi

Tapi

Aku tak kan pernah berlari darimu

_coffee_

I Never be a Normal Friend

Thanks for being there for me

For a virtual shoulder to cry on  

For a virtual hands to *puk-puk* me

For a heart that really care

Here, I can feel your sincerity

Happy by your presence

Grateful by our acquaintanceship

Enjoy our relationship

I was not faking smile with you

I was not faking laugh with you

I was not faking tears from you

And you should know…

It always the best damn thing to have a person who really care like you…

I don’t mean to hurt you

I don’t mean to use you

I don’t mean to hurt you

Not at all…

I was trying to open my heart for you

I was trying to open my mind for you

Sorry if I did mistakes

Sorry for misunderstanding between us

Sorry for miscommunication that makes you feel…

I use you…

Actually, you really help me

To learn how to love (again)

To be brave… to move on…

But sadly, you quit before I’m finish…

That’s ok,

I appreciate it…

Thanks for being there so far…

*cheers*

NORMAL FRIEND

Can’t we be a normal friend?

No, we can’t.

Maybe memories make us have a big expectation to each other.

Or maybe it is not at all..

You said, there’s no accident in life.

Everything has a reason.

So why should we meet again?

Is it to hurt each other AGAIN?

Haha.

Well, that’s very funny.

I thought I know you very well.

I thought you know me really well.

We met, we talked, we laughed, we fight, we break up…

We met again, we talked, we laughed, we fight… … …

It is funny. So damn funny.

DAMN! Why it should be happen to us?

For all the time we have…

I USED TO THINK it should be no heart feeling.

I don’t mean to hurt you like I THOUGHT and FELT whenever I need to talked to you and you said,

“sorry, talk to you later, my friends are coming up.”

Or

“sorry, I’m hyper busy right now”

I don’t want to have such a misunderstanding anymore with you.

Two times is enough.

Simply, I just want you to know …

Whatever you’ve done to me, I’m fine…

But it hurt me when you feel like …

I AM THE ONE WHO IS HURTING YOU SO MUCH

Haven’t we laughed together?

…

Are you faking a smile??

…

Well, deep inside me…

I still expect us to be a normal friend…

Thanks for being there for a while, ANYWAY :’)

ARE WE FRIENDS? (PART 2)

It is hard for me to describe us. We just talk to each other, share everything. 

But we never claim that we are friends. No. Why?

-         --  Because we agreed that it hurts when there are no friends when we need them.

-        --   Because we agreed that it hurts when we thought, “you are my friend, but why you don’t …. (You can fill in the blanks)”.

-        --  Because he said to me, “I don’t know what a friend means…”. And I think so.

-         --  Because there is no heart feeling between us. Just speak up your mind. When I have time to listen, I will. When I don’t want to listen to you, so what??? Hahahaha. Silly. But fun and fair enough when we said to each other, “are we friend???” hahahaha. 

Well I don’t really care what we are. Just happy to have you around me is enough. Thank you, ………..!!